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二〇〇一年年底，因父亲病重，我回到阔别了十三年的北京。即使再有心理准备，也还是没想到，北京已面目皆非，难以辨认，对我来说完全是个陌生的城市。我在自己的故乡成了异乡人。
我生在北京，在那儿度过我的前半生，特别是童年和青少年——我的成长经验与北京息息相关。而这一切却与这城市一起消失了。
从那一刻起，我萌生了写这本书的冲动：我要用文字重建一座城市，重建我的北京——用我的北京否认如今的北京。在我的城市里，时间倒流，枯木逢春，消失的气味儿、声音和光线被召回，被拆除的四合院、胡同和寺庙恢复原貌，瓦顶排浪般涌向低低的天际线，鸽哨响彻深深的蓝天，孩子们熟知四季的变化，居民们胸有方向感。我打开城门，欢迎四海漂泊的游子，欢迎无家可归的孤魂，欢迎所有好奇的客人们。
这一重建工程旷日持久，比我想象的难得多。记忆带有选择性、模糊性及排他性，并长期处于冬眠状态。而写作正是唤醒记忆的过程——在记忆的迷宫，一条通道引导另一条通道，一扇门开向另一扇门。
童年、青少年在人的一生中如此重要，甚至可以说，后来的一切几乎都是在那时候形成或被决定的。回溯生命的源头相当于某种史前探险，伴随着发现的快乐与悲哀。如果说远离和回归是一条路的两端，走的越远，往往离童年越近；也正是这最初的动力，把我推向天涯海角。
北岛是个诗人，他的写作理由看起来有种孩童般的天真。我觉得“重建”终归是“重建”，“恢复原貌”是不可能的。原因很简单，就是正如他所说：“记忆带有选择性、模糊性及排他性，并长期处于冬眠状态”。记忆重新编码的过程，受到现时感情的影响，会带有强烈的选择作用。所见是所欲见。即便是当下的自我，也是一种自我意识选择的结果。 不过不管是什么理由，都是内心寻求平静和谐的方式吧。写作正像是一种自我救赎。
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About the game:
USA as a world power? In E-Sim it is possible!
In E-Sim we have a huge, living world, which is a mirror copy of the Earth. Well, maybe not completely mirrored, because the balance of power in this virtual world looks a bit different than in real life. In E-Sim, USA does not have to be a world superpower, It can be efficiently managed as a much smaller country that has entrepreneurial citizens that support it's foundation. Everything depends on the players themselves and how they decide to shape the political map of the game.
Work for the good of your country and see it rise to an empire.
Activities in this game are divided into several modules. First is the economy as a citizen in a country of your choice you must work to earn money, which you will get to spend for example, on food or purchase of weapons which are critical for your progress as a fighter. You will work in either private companies which are owned by players or government companies which are owned by the state. After progressing in the game you will finally get the opportunity to set up your own business and hire other players. If it prospers, we can even change it into a joint-stock company and enter the stock market and get even more money in this way.
In E-Sim, international wars are nothing out of the ordinary.
Become an influential politician.
The second module is a politics. Just like in real life politics in E-Sim are an extremely powerful tool that can be used for your own purposes. From time to time there are elections in the game in which you will not only vote, but also have the ability to run for the head of the party you're in. You can also apply for congress, where once elected you will be given the right to vote on laws proposed by your fellow congress members or your president and propose laws yourself. Voting on laws is important for your country as it can shape the lives of those around you. You can also try to become the head of a given party, and even take part in presidential elections and decide on the shape of the foreign policy of a given state (for example, who to declare war on). Career in politics is obviously not easy and in order to succeed in it, you have to have a good plan and compete for the votes of voters.
You can go bankrupt or become a rich man while playing the stock market.
The international war.
The last and probably the most important module is military. In E-Sim, countries are constantly fighting each other for control over territories which in return grant them access to more valuable raw materials. For this purpose, they form alliances, they fight international wars, but they also have to deal with, for example, uprisings in conquered countries or civil wars, which may explode on their territory. You can also take part in these clashes, although you are also given the opportunity to lead a life as a pacifist who focuses on other activities in the game (for example, running a successful newspaper or selling products).
At the auction you can sell or buy your dream inventory.
E-Sim is a unique browser game. It's creators ensured realistic representation of the mechanisms present in the real world and gave all power to the players who shape the image of the virtual Earth according to their own. So come and join them and help your country achieve its full potential.
Invest, produce and sell - be an entrepreneur in E-Sim.
Take part in numerous events for the E-Sim community.
