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我喜欢你是寂静的
聂鲁达（智利）
李宗荣译
我喜欢你是寂静的，仿佛你消失了一样，
你从远处聆听我，我的声音却无法触及你。
好像你的双眼已经飞离去，如同一个吻，封缄了你的嘴。
如同所有的事物充满了我的灵魂，
你从所有的事物中浮现，充满了我的灵魂。
你像我的灵魂，一只梦的蝴蝶。你如同忧郁这个词。
我喜欢你是寂静的，好像你已远去。
你听起来像在悲叹，,一只如鸽悲鸣的蝴蝶。
你从远处听见我，我的声音无法触及你：
让我在你的沉默中安静无声。
并且让我借你的沉默与你说话，
你的沉默明亮如灯，简单如指环，
你就像黑夜，拥有寂寞与群星。
你的沉默就是星星的沉默，遥远而明亮。
我喜欢你是寂静的，仿佛你消失了一样，
遥远而且哀伤，仿佛你已经死了。
彼时，一个字，一个微笑，已经足够。
而我会觉得幸福，因那不是真的而觉得幸福。
Pixiv账号：bob
Pixiv账号：蝶夜
Pixiv账号：美駒 沙名希(更新率控えめ)
【杂文】
我临走前几天跟我妈说，能不能不结婚？我妈说，你不想让我活就别结。我说，你看很多科学家都是独身，人家献身科学多伟大啊。我妈说，我不如你会讲道理，但是你不想让你妈抱上孙子你就别结婚。
我24岁的时候，我妈就说她想抱孙子了。她说她老了很孤单，既然儿子常年不在身边，如果有个孙儿陪陪她就好了。我说，我还不放心让你带呢，我还想把我的儿子培养成大思想家、大作家、大科学家或者什么成功人物呢。搁你那儿，孩子将来肯定落伍了。随着我年纪越来越大，我妈越来越为抱孙子而催促于我。我也很想有个小孩儿，而且我这人极其喜欢小朋友，但是我还只是个大龄青年，我还想在我的学术生涯上取得一点成绩，我还有梦想。三十多岁结婚应该不晚吧。
今年回家，我们家人给我安排了我生命中的首次相亲，由于本人再度犯了好色/以貌取人的毛病相中了对方，但不幸的是未被对方相中，结果本人没出息地郁闷了好几天。后来得知该女子已经有男友了，又高又大头比我大两倍，而且她妈说我恐怕没钱买房子不同意让她女儿跟我。
但是不结婚，我的性欲问题无法得到人性化的解决。据说，只有婚姻中的性交才是合法合理也合乎道德的。所以，有时候我常常幻想自己是同性恋。就像我的偶像维特根斯坦和福柯一样。同性恋的好处是不必太负责更不必以婚姻的形式约束我。既然都是男人，只要戴上套，搞完后拔枪出来甩干了就可以走人。不需要花时间猜对方心思、哄对方、买礼物、制造浪漫与惊喜、想法设法逗他开心……。都是男人嘛，直接来。我一度觉得这是一个很好的解决我性欲亢奋的办法，还可以节省我很多搞科研、打游戏、看电影的时间。何乐不为？
可是我也试了，我的确对男人没有一点性欲。看男男毛片，一点反应都没有。倒是对女人的兴趣逐年递增，据说男人20岁的时候是性欲最旺盛的时候，但是我快三十了仍然极其强烈，因此我怀疑我是动物，或至少是人类进化树上比较靠近底部的未充分进化的物种。这种处在进化树中的低端地位可能就是我无法成为一名一流哲学家的致命缺陷了，（虽然我现在连三流都算不上）我被我的生物属性所主宰、所奴役、所驱使，力比多虽然全部释放进了形而上的逻辑空间内部，但是形而下的肉体焦虑所带来的荷尔蒙-多巴胺问题、神经问题、心理问题已经直接地干涉到了我的精神世界，让它的逻辑构造越来越浑浊。
据说一个人太长时间不做爱会心理变态，就连比人类进化得更为充分的瓦肯人每七年也要交配一次，否则他们的血液就将沸腾。如今我的体内的任何一种液体都沸腾了，无论印度瑜伽、笛卡尔的沉思、还是佛教的禅坐、抑或是儒家的静坐都再也不能降低我血液中力比多的浓度时，面前的CPU与硬盘便开始飞快地运转起来，因为它正在刻录最新的AV大片；随之而来，精液一次次地射在了不道德的地面、桌子与座椅上；思绪不断地飘向充满赤身裸体巨乳童颜身形曼妙之美丽女子的伊甸园……
独身的哲学家最好不要同时又是一个未得到充分进化的异性恋者，如果那样，你将很有可能用阴茎构想出一个唯意志论来，甭管是生命意志还是权力意志，归根到底都是要把女人摁在身下狠狠地干的意志。
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原文地址：http://www.douban.com/note/138106414/
【编后话】
猛虎他朝困冷丘，爪牙可堪忍受。
题目：
变态，那是有如绽放的玫瑰，夜晚振翅飞翔的蝴蝶一般。
I can’t stop the loneliness。
这样的我，又有谁能理解？
上面的话出自哪部动漫？
奖品：
20×Q2礼物
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About the game:
USA as a world power? In E-Sim it is possible!
In E-Sim we have a huge, living world, which is a mirror copy of the Earth. Well, maybe not completely mirrored, because the balance of power in this virtual world looks a bit different than in real life. In E-Sim, USA does not have to be a world superpower, It can be efficiently managed as a much smaller country that has entrepreneurial citizens that support it's foundation. Everything depends on the players themselves and how they decide to shape the political map of the game.
Work for the good of your country and see it rise to an empire.
Activities in this game are divided into several modules. First is the economy as a citizen in a country of your choice you must work to earn money, which you will get to spend for example, on food or purchase of weapons which are critical for your progress as a fighter. You will work in either private companies which are owned by players or government companies which are owned by the state. After progressing in the game you will finally get the opportunity to set up your own business and hire other players. If it prospers, we can even change it into a joint-stock company and enter the stock market and get even more money in this way.
In E-Sim, international wars are nothing out of the ordinary.
Become an influential politician.
The second module is a politics. Just like in real life politics in E-Sim are an extremely powerful tool that can be used for your own purposes. From time to time there are elections in the game in which you will not only vote, but also have the ability to run for the head of the party you're in. You can also apply for congress, where once elected you will be given the right to vote on laws proposed by your fellow congress members or your president and propose laws yourself. Voting on laws is important for your country as it can shape the lives of those around you. You can also try to become the head of a given party, and even take part in presidential elections and decide on the shape of the foreign policy of a given state (for example, who to declare war on). Career in politics is obviously not easy and in order to succeed in it, you have to have a good plan and compete for the votes of voters.
You can go bankrupt or become a rich man while playing the stock market.
The international war.
The last and probably the most important module is military. In E-Sim, countries are constantly fighting each other for control over territories which in return grant them access to more valuable raw materials. For this purpose, they form alliances, they fight international wars, but they also have to deal with, for example, uprisings in conquered countries or civil wars, which may explode on their territory. You can also take part in these clashes, although you are also given the opportunity to lead a life as a pacifist who focuses on other activities in the game (for example, running a successful newspaper or selling products).
At the auction you can sell or buy your dream inventory.
E-Sim is a unique browser game. It's creators ensured realistic representation of the mechanisms present in the real world and gave all power to the players who shape the image of the virtual Earth according to their own. So come and join them and help your country achieve its full potential.
Invest, produce and sell - be an entrepreneur in E-Sim.
Take part in numerous events for the E-Sim community.
